Our computer broke last month and there has been good and bad effects about it. Bad things are that I can't spend so much time at the DA or at MSN that I used to, but It is the good side too. Now I have much more time to do all other things and at the first time ,since I don't know when, I actually feel that I have everything in oder. School´s going great (so far), I am seeing my friends (that I din't even know I had) in real life, I have started to study new language, I have time to take care of my helth (I used to go in for sport about 2to4 hours a week, now it's 6to7 hours a week) and Sundays are for church and drawing I think I never even realised how much time I spend in internet (about 4to6hour a day)

Still (I don't wan't to complain, but I do) there is one tiny whole inside of me that won't leave me alone, and it' just growing and growing... you know the feeling when you just wan't to be near someone? Put you arms around him and not let go, but when you had chance you just can't do it? And after you hate yourself becouse of you spineless? I am not used to be close to people, and now even when I would like to be I cannot. I feel like it's ruining everything.

Sorry for this.

Many hugs to you all

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